2023/2024 May..and june

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got all my "friends" to hate me a while back its become a a problem of mine because in so fucking scared my new friends hate me or dont like me and will leave me all of a sudden like my old ones did
ive been tending to my garden after the storm came through i got bored and made one aroubd mothers day.i fear and hungered my laptop.im also really happy because the smiling friends episodes r coming out, and im love maxxing thats it 4 today(2/29/24)

i feel so lonely im mean and annoying or selfish but the second i dont feel loved like i feel i derserve i trow a tantrum(1/22/24)

im so stupiddd AHHHHHHH my friend made a board about me and ig i missed when it said more like this man and i thought they rememberd i liked sonic youth and had other things like poams about me they deleted it idfk i swear it was different im so stupid i was hyper fixated on them for days i still love what they put about me and shit but idkkk nngfnvkmn i hate it so much im not even mad igg , im so scared that people r making fun of me,expecialy with fifis friends i couldent tell bruuhhhhhh,i dont think i wanna go to utah shellsee thta in really fat and ugly i hate when they tell me to come places i reallly want to be there so bad like i tear up every time but id like to go as a ghost or sm cause im really awkward